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I sit across from her acutely aware of the unfamiliarity between us. At first glance she seems stable, sturdy, dependable, however we have only just met, so what do I know. She will show me in time, I am sure.

I notice the years on her and feel her observing me also. Watchful, amused. Bemused? “We’ll see” she seems to say.

Years of being there for whomever needed her have taken its toll, although her stoic determination to prevail has led her to me. What lies beneath her worn appearance? What stories will she tell as I spend time with her…love her…the best I can…with what I have to offer…for all that is worth.

Today we just sit together. No pressure. No expectations.

Tomorrow we will go a little deeper… not far…a few casual questions…some gentle enquiry and then we will see.

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